Lately...

I have been so all over the place lately. Both mentally and physically. I am officially done with classes and finals... all As and one fricken B+. That B+ prevented me from graduating cum laude. My final GPA is a 3.45 so I miss it by basically half a point. When I emailed my Greek and Roman Mythology teacher about it, asking if there was anything I could do to boost my grade, he said, "I hate to be a Grinch but that is your final grade. You have a solid B+. An 89." AN 89!!!! ONE FRICKEN POINT! If he had given me one more point I would be graduating with honors. Ok a few tears were shed over that but I am ok with it now. Sort of. I better not run into him ever again, I'd probably trip him or something.

I went home last weekend for Uncle Bill's 60th birthday. Aunt Eileen flew in from California to surprise him and my Uncle Dave came from Florida so my mom got to be with all her siblings again. It was great seeing the family and I had fun. Got my doctor appointments done, car inspected, went to Stefan's baseball game, and 8am mass for Mother's Day (no escaping that one). But I missed Fake Prom and a senior trip to 6 Flags which I was kind of bummed about. I didn't get to say goodbye to a lot of undergrads because they left by the time I got back Monday :(

Monday I took Adam back to the ER (he cut his hand during Gilbies last week) to get his stitches out. Another four hours in Providence Hospital's waiting room for a 5 minute procedure. I really hate that place now... 8 hours of my life in there. I didn't mind taking Adam but the time management skills of that place were infuriating!

Gilbies went really well. I didn't win anything, but I still had fun. No big snafus technically and overall a success I think.

Ryan is in Lejune NC training. He has been there since the 2nd and gets back Thursday or Friday. I miss him. We haven't really gotten to talk longer than a few minutes at a time, maybe a few texts here and there. I know this is practice for when he deploys but I just miss him. A lot. I am so glad he will be back here in time for Graduation, that is the best thing I could ask for. We also hit our one year anniversary on the 8th. He was in NC, I was in NJ at the dentist... we didn't even get to talk that day since his phone was messing up. I talked to him the day after though which was great. I got him a photobook made so he has pictures of family and friends when he goes and he got me a new camera since my old one died. (:

Acting wise I am currently doing a show for Journeyman Theatre. Jay is reviving (ish) Ubu from our sophomore year. I am General Custard again and Adam and Katie are also reviving their roles. Jason, Nick, and a non CUA girl Julia are also in it. We started rehearsing this week, yay viewpoints, and the show is a one-time deal on June 1st. I am pretty excited about it. I also just finished being a scenic charge for Jay's musical Closer than Ever. I did all the painting and got paid! Yay professional! Then in the playbill Jay didn't list himself as scenic designer, since he basically was, so I ended up getting credited with that in some reviews. Eek! At least they were positive! Haha.

I did get cast in HAZE, the indie film that is filming in DC area this summer. I am cast as a college student, but if they don't get the schedule together soon and release it I might have to back out. I lose my apartment July 31st so if filming goes beyond that.... oh that would suck!

What else? Went to the zoo yesterday with DeiTos and Adam, which I really needed. I was pretty bummed yesterday. It's weird. I feel so out of the loop with some of my CUA friends. It has been building all semester really, but it is hitting me hard this week. Some of the people I considered my best friends barely talk to me anymore. I don't get invited out with them anymore and when I try to make plans they generally fall through or never get close to happening. It hurts. A lot. I miss people and I feel like I either got pushed out or replaced by a lot of them. I know spending most weekends with Ryan has changed things, and I do not regret that at all, but I think once I started not always being available they stopped trying with me. I feel stupid being so upset over it, yes even crying, but I can't help it. I know as of next week we are going separate ways, but I wish our friendships were where they were at this time last year. So much.

I did go to Big Blue today to help clean up a bit before the ladies move, but I still felt kind of like a 5th (7th?) wheel. I didn't follow the inside jokes, I was out of the loop, quiet, and just not like me. I did my best to keep cheery and involved but I felt like that awkward kid at a party that no one knows and people just occassionally spoke to because they felt bad for me. Ok end emo moments.

I am meeting Richie (Ryan's room mate Josh's girlfriend) tomorrow for lunch and shopping as well as maybe Dell and Janos. Hope it works out, it will be fun to see them. Circle of friends is ever changing. I also get to pick up my cap and gown tomorrow.

Oh. My. God.

I graduate in three days.

Then Ubu. Then Ryan is on leave June 8-28th. Mom wants to have a graduation party June 13th or so. Then Stage Managing Fringe in July, maybe doing electric work on Kathleen's show, then NJ for a few weeks. Then I move to Disney August 19th! Oy.

Ok, all for now I suppose.